Saturday, May 25, 2013

No Record Of Wrongs

Marriage has its ups and downs that is for sure.  It is funny how you can love somebody so much yet argue over the littlest things.  It seems like it is almost always impossible for me to just drop something.  I always keep going and going.  It's so hard for me to just let go.  I find myself choosing to hold on to an argument just because it doesn't seem fair to have to let it go, I want the other person to know exactly why I am upset and understand it. I am so stubborn.  Tonight me and my husband had one of those times.  A minor disagreement that turned into hurtful words being thrown back and forth.  This time something was different.   A verse kept coming into my mind, and not just the verse, a particular part of that verse.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

In 1 Corinthians 13:4-5 where Paul is explaining what God says love is, he says, "it does not keep record of wrongs."  That is the part that kept repeating in my head.  I wanted so bad to just not talk to him ever again because of something he had said to me.  He had said that he loved me but he didn't like me.  OUCH, that hurt.  Never mind my actions which had caused him to say that, or the hurtful words I had said to him, I wanted to stay mad at him because of those few painful words.  I thought to myself, "Fine, if he doesn't like me, I'll just not talk to him, and ignore him."  That didn't last long before God stepped in and whispered these words in my ear.  "Love does not keep record of wrongs."  At first I put up quite a bit of fight, thinking about how that's not fair, and how I deserved to be able to stay mad at him.  God repeated it to me again.  I felt myself resisting so much! But the truth of it remains, regardless of what we had said or done to each other, we are not supposed to keep any record of it.  How hard that is, because I know that I remember every hurtful thing he has ever said and it's almost as if I am keeping a tally.  I can't help but think about a couple of other verses in the Bible.

Matthew 6:14 says,"If you forgive people their sins, your Father in heaven will forgive your sins also."

Matthew 7:2 says, "For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you."

“Come now, let us reason together,” says the LORD. “Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool. – Isaiah 1:18

Now all of that has really got me thinking.  Wow, I am really not supposed to stay mad over something he said to me.  I am told very clearly by God to forgive!  I will show my love for him and God by not keeping a record of wrongs!  <3

Heavenly Father-
Please help me to forgive.  Please help me to learn when to hold my tongue.  I don't want to nag or carry things on and on and on.  I want to work on this Lord, and I know that with Your help all things are possible.  Please help me to learn to forgive, help me to not keep record of wrongs.  Teach me to forgive the way that You forgive.  I want my life to bring glory to Your name, I love you,  In Jesus Name, Amen.

1 comment:

  1. The Spirit of God speaks through you......as encouragement to others..... very inspiring!

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